Do you remember the Bedazzled gizmo? You could apply sparkly’s to anything and everything.
Today I’m feeling a bit Bedraggled.
Weird dreams, aches and pains that didn’t really keep me awake, but were in the realm of awareness all night. Even coffee didn’t sound appealing. (I know! Right!?!)
So, as I muddled though the morning and typed out today’s message from the Ancient Ones, I began to see the honey-like light pouring down into me. I took a bit of a break and suddenly found myself cleaning the bathroom. Hadn’t planned on doing that, just found myself doing that task with a new essential oil cleaner I’d just mixed up.
Now, I’m not sure if it was the new cleaner making an old task “fun” (cleaning the bathroom = fun?!?) or if it was the energy influx, but I can guarantee you it wasn’t will power or determination. I hadn’t even really considered taking on that task.
So, if you haven’t read the Ancient Ones message yet, I strongly encourage you to do so! I’m feeling much better – effortlessly!
I still have a ways to go to being my normal, joyful self, but I’m a long ways from where I was an hour ago. Just because I felt bedraggled, doesn’t mean I cannot become bedazzled! And I don’t even have to work on it. No “efforting” involved. No whining involved. No suffering involved.
It’s that simple. Even for the little stuff. It’s not the end of the world nor a huge tragedy. I just was running low on energy. By asking, allowing, and visualizing that warm, glowing golden light to flow down into my soul, I’m regenerating/rejuvenating/restoring my energy fields.
My normal routine would have called for a stern talking to myself about what I’m doing wrong. You can imagine how productive that usually is. . . not.
Where ever you are today . . . How ever you are today . . . Take a moment for yourself. Rather than using that time to beat yourself up, how about an energy break instead? Ask for assistance. God (Divine Source, Higher Power, All That Is . . .Whatever) sends this golden light to you. See this energy flowing into your being. I noticed it flowing into every cell of my body. I don’t know where the soul resides, so I just allowed the energy to flow where it wanted to go. As it flowed in, it swept away exhaustion and the bedraggled energy.
I know it will be wise to rest today. I have a sense that clarity will come to me to assist me in shifting even more. I feel I can rest with peaceful and gentle energy rather than self-loathing and bitter reproach. I bet I rest much better as a result.
How will you use this golden energy?
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It’s time to replace my keyboard for my computer. After completing two books utilizing the same keyboard I can hardly read the keys. All of the lettering except Enter; Shift; Backspace and the letters X, Z, W, P and Q are worn off. Nothin’ but black. If I don’t rely upon muscle memory, I couldn’t type a thing!
Funny thing is, we have TWO replacement keyboards ready to hook up. One is wireless and one is not. I didn’t realize we had either replacement until I cleaned the office a few weeks ago. They had been buried under workshop handouts and unfinished projects.
With those handouts filed and the projects either finished or removed, it’s time to decide!
Wireless I could move around a bit. Wired I could retain status quo. I don’t think I really care. Therein lies the issue. My apathy restricts my moving forward. Granted, I only need to look at the letters on the keyboard if I’m typing in an unfamiliar password or something, but I’m sure Phil doesn’t type by memory like I do. When we had repairmen in to work on the internet, they were totally lost!
I think I’m waiting for something to fire me up to require a decision. So, in the meantime, I’m deciding not to decide. That’s okay, too.
I’ve got another book simmering on the back burner. I’m not quite fired up about that yet. Bits and pieces get my interest going, yet I’m just not fired up about it.
My “fire-in-the-soul” for now, is focused on the Intuitive Tarot Mastery and Certification Worth-shops I’m teaching. Love that! Love to see people understanding it and getting excited about it, too.
I get to be fired up about somethings and not fired up about other things. Self-judgment would tell me I’m bad for that. I can let that judgment go. I get to allow myself to live wide open about one subject and ho-hum about another. (Times past I would have expected myself to be fired up about everything all the time. Sheesh! Glad I can let that go.)
This time of year some people are really fired up about Christmas decorating. Phil and I don’t decorate our house . . . mostly because I don’t enjoy the un-decorating that happens in January . . . though in truth, I really decorated the house once a few years back and it was beautiful and perfect! Since then, it’s been – been there done that, no thank you. Some people think I’m terrible for not decorating the house. I’m okay with that. It’s just that they are all fired up about the decorations and want me to have that same feeling. I don’t. It’s okay that they do.
Conversely, I’ve got some new ideas for decorating the church that I’m pretty fired up about. Go figure!
So, how does one find the “fire-in-the-soul” about life? It’s pretty easy to see where the fire isn’t, true? I can easily see what I’m NOT fired up about – computer keyboards – decorating the house for the holidays. Trying to install a fire there is pretty fruitless and frustrating. If someone
wants you to get all fired up about something and you are not, let it go. Allow them to be where they are and bless their efforts as best you can by being supportive and caring. (Wouldn’t want to dampen their fire! That’s not fair! Build them up and stoke their fire so they can really shine! That blesses you both!)
Then, take some time to consider what fires you up. Where do you put your energy? Are you allowing duty to drain your energy so there is no fire left? Might want to remember to bring balance into your world.
Usually, anything creative generates “fire-in-the-soul”. Often, being out in nature allows the fire to expand. Anything out of routine is helpful to break the apathy pattern that exists when the fire is missing.
“But, I’m depressed,” you might say. Breaking set patterns becomes vital as the fire is low in this case. Do one thing differently today. One thing. Doing one simple thing differently changes our perspective on lots of other things. One little thing is a spark that can ignite the bonfire of your soul!
It’s unnecessary to be fired up about everything all the time. Yet, having that “fire-in-the-soul” about something brightens the whole world. You feel it and shine. Others sense the shine and can catch the spark. Soon, the world is a brighter place.
One little change can make a huge difference in your own world. One person can make a huge difference in the world. Make a difference by doing one thing differently and see where that takes you! What an adventure! Look out world!
Those who remember old TV shows can hear me shouting - Fire-In-The-Soul!
I spent most of yesterday cleaning the kitchen. We had purchased a new over-the-stove microwave and the big old microwave was removed and given away. That left a pile of clutter and old dust that just had to go. While I was at it, I tackled another clutter spot filled with notes and pens and coupons. That just had to go, too!
Then there was that other corner that had, well, what was back there anyway?
Clutter removed, dirt cleaned, counters polished (they are old, but when polished they look ok), even the walls got a good scrubbing.
Usually, I stress and anguish about a big job like that for at least a day or two. Grumble, moan about it and generally resist taking action. This time, I felt the resistance and released it. (Thank you Sedona Method!! If you haven’t checked that out, you really might want to give it some attention!) I was going to sit and glance at the paper for a minute and found myself just getting to it! I was as surprised as you!
I gave myself several opportunities to quit. “I’ll do this much today and do the rest another day,” sort of thing. No need. I just kept going. For someone who experiences low energy issues, this was such a blessing!
It surprises me how much energy is spent on resisting, dreading, stressing, or dragging my feet on something. What a huge blessing it is to just get to it! It’s hard for me to equate stress and resistance as usable energy – life force energy. They seem so different, yet are they really?
It’s my energy taking form as tension or as action. My choice how to use that energy. On a low energy day, I can take a bit more time and awareness to release resistance/dread so that I have more energy to do the things I prefer to do.
Some things are still not fun, yet they take half the time and not nearly as much energy. What a deal!
My next task is the pantry. God only knows what’s in there. Usable stuff is up front, certainly, but who knows what’s been shoved in those dark corners. I have a couple of things still on my counters that really belong in the pantry – but there is no room. So, on my next day-off, the pantry will get my attention. I am already feeling dread and releasing it. I’m already feeling tired and releasing it. I’m already feeling the exhaustion of choosing what stays and what goes and I’m releasing it.
How to release? Notice what you’re feeling. Feeling dread is a pretty normal and appropriate action for a task like cleaning the pantry. I don’t have to pretend I don’t feel the dread. I don’t have to push the dread away in the back of my mind (not really releasing). I don’t have to shame/blame myself because it’s there. I just let it be there. (What a concept!) Then I allow it to dissipate or fall away as best I can for now. If the dread reappears, I welcome it and let it go again. And again. The process takes very little energy, yet releases a ton of energy for me to use elsewhere.
I have a couple of tasks to do on the computer this morning. These are things I don’t yet know how to do and I’m feeling resistance coming up for those tasks as well. I think I’ll take a few minutes to notice and release that resistance as well.
Releasing resistance could be called surrender. Surrender isn’t about giving up, it’s about giving up the struggle. Once the struggle is released, we slip into the flow. In the flow, energy becomes usable, decisions become easier, actions seem effortless, time shifts (things take less time than we thought they would), our minds open, and our spirit soars!
Some days, don’tcha just wish there was a way to Ctrl+Alt+Delete for life’s experiences?
Not just do-overs, but block it out completely from our experiences . . . wishing somethings just never happened.
When we experience this, we are in the middle of trauma or we are re-living trauma. Trauma looks differently to different folks. Those who have experienced very little trauma can be upset and distraught over minor things, while those who have experienced horrible crisis can be more resilient over the little things. At the same time, those who experienced difficulties can be resilient for a while and then become overwhelmed by the next little thing that comes along.
Living in a cave can prevent a lot of the trauma we experience, yet that’s not a good option for us either.
So, how do we deal with trauma – or what WE perceive as trauma (others may perceive as silly – get over yourself) so that we feel free?
Unfortunately, there is no single way to deal with trauma. And maybe lots of ways in conjunction with one another may provide the relief we are looking for. For me, a combination of EFT (tapping), Emotion Code, Prayer, Breath Work, doing creative things, walking out in nature, petting kittens, doing a kindness, and a healthy dose of grandchildren really seems to help.
There is no quick fix, yet some processes take only a moment of time and offer hours of relief. I think the trick for me is to keep at it. The hardest part is recognizing I’m going down and taking immediate steps to prevent further damage. The biggest tip-off for me is finding fault with myself or with Phil (hard to believe, I know!) Once I recognize I’m criticizing either one of us, I know I’d better do something FAST!! That downward spiral gets out of control so fast it’ll make your head spin!
What are your tip-offs?
What do you do to counteract the spiral?
What will help a full blown spiral out of control negativity blast? In a word, GOD. Whatever you perceive that to be . . . Divine Source, All That Is . . .What-ever. The Presence of God is ever available to us and God’s Love happens immediately upon asking. Just ASK!!! “Please help me, I’m down and out!” Or, “Please help me I’m heading down and don’t want to go there.”
Also, God’s angelic host immediately intervene when asked. Specifically, Angels of Protection often are the first to arrive. These beings are often a brilliant white, yellow, or light orange in color. Darkness cannot stand all their brightness and will dissipate. Angels of Comfort come in next, these are often shades of blue and feel very soothing. Then, Angels of Healing attend.
These are often appear to be surrounded by hues of greens. If you see a flash of light out of the corner of your eye, you may have an angel in attendance. You may not perceive a color at first, but you might become aware of a color once you tune in regularly.
If you know someone who is struggling with overcoming trauma, you may send angels to assist them. You might want to send Angels of Illumination first – these are Luminary Angels and are a softer white than Angels of Protection. These Angels help a person see their options and opportunities to grow and shift. Without that awareness, not much else can happen. “Luminary Angels, please attend to my friend ___________.”
You may wish to send Angels of Protection along with the Luminary Angels. Or, you can let Divine Source determine which angels are best by saying, “Please send angels to ___________.”
When we are in the midst of that trauma spiral, it is nearly impossible to get clear enough to remember to ask. It’s wise to request Angels to attend when in a positive state, knowing that a downward turn could happen at any time. Traumatized people have lots of triggers that can get activated quickly. Once the cycle has broken at least once, it is tons easier to break free a second time or a third.
For me, it’s probably always going to be something for me to deal with. Thank Goodness I have tools that really help and that help really quickly. Keep searching until you find what works for you. A joyful life is our rightful state of being. Seek it. Find it. Own it!
I saw a post on Facebook the other day. . . Someone had been having a really hard time of it for awhile and they posted that they’d had a perfect day, except . . . (and went on to list what they didn’t like about the day.) You can see right away that something feels off about that, right?
We humans are programmed to look for what’s wrong for our survival. Those of us who’ve had trauma are more likely to discover the wrong more quickly than others might. That can be a good thing when sorting fruit or building a shed. To be happy, it’s imperative to invoke a different sort of search engine in our brain.
Here’s the deal: The Universe (God, Higher Power, All That Is, Whatever) happily serves us up what we think about. What we hold in our attention becomes gifted to us. What we focus on sends an energetic message to Universe, “More of this, please.” To which the Universe responds, “Certainly! And here! Have it in abundance!”
Let’s break the pattern of negative or sorrowful things happening to us. Take 15 minutes of your day . . . (Yes, just 15 minutes!) and think of wonderful things you’ve experienced in your life and think of wonderful things you hope to experience. It helps to write a list of happy happenstances. Keep it simple. Like; kicking through the fall leaves with the dogs. Really recall those details. Molly as a puppy diving into a pile of leaves and spinning until all the leaves were scattered. What joy that memory evokes! I remember the large oak leaves and the beautiful colors on each one. I recall Phil’s laugh. The crisp air, the bright sun, that old coat—ragged but warm, the throwing of leaves into the air and the dogs catching them. Just reading about my memory probably brought a wave of bright energy to you! Imagine how much power your own memories possess!
Once you’ve remembered good things for a bit, then shift into positive expectations—your hopes, what you hope to experience. Laughter, ease, comfort, excitement of pursuing a dream or a goal. Maybe you aren’t experiencing them in this moment, but you know you’ve experienced good things before. You can and will experience more goodness. Don’t have happy memories? Ask others to share theirs! When you can “get into it” it feels just as real and is just as powerful! See it and feel it. Then envision what you hope to experience.
See it into being. See yourself happy. See yourself healthy. See yourself financially comfortable. See yourself helping others. See it. Believe it. Be it!
15 minutes of remembering/envisioning offers some amazing side benefits!
Had a really weird dream last night. It’s still “haunting” me. Funny how that happens. I remember in the dream, feeling a touch on my shoulder and then being teleported to a warzone and defending helpless people. After making sure they were safe, I was touched on the shoulder and brought back to my normal life. When I was touched, I would be teleported to where I was needed and given super powers while being dressed in white flowing garments. This kept happening and I became known as “The Apparition” – a super hero.
I don’t know what bothered me more, taking violent actions (even thought it was to defend others) or the fact that I never knew when it was going to happen. I awoke being afraid to get in the shower. Pretty silly. (Actually, I might want to sell the idea to Marvel – lol).
Yet, here it is, hours later, and I’m still feeling the effects of a dream.
Our bodies respond to what our mind is doing, thinking, processing. Our hormones respond to what our mind is doing, thinking, processing. Our health responds to what our mind is doing, thinking, processing. Our emotions respond to what the mind is doing, thinking, or processing. The mind is a powerful tool.
Giving my mind the task of writing to you, allows my mind to switch gears and shift focus. This in turn, allows my body and emotions to disengage from the night’s dream. Perhaps it’s a diversion. Perhaps it’s a re-set. Either way, I can move forward into something new and different.
I’m hoping to apply the same technique as I re-set my intentions for healthier living. I had a few low energy days and unfortunately, habituated the sitting around pattern. Boy, it’s hard to shake that! Once I’ve parked my backside down, it’s really hard to hoist it back up and get moving again. It will be imperative for me to find something to capture my attention. Sitting activates boredom which activates more sitting. (Crazy, right?!?) Good ole’ human nature!
I generally have lots of interests . . . unfortunately none of them interest me when I’ve gotten locked into the boredom mode. It’s like being a kid on vacation with all the time in the world and “nothin’ to do.” All the things I COULD do seem boring.
So, it’s time to cultivate something NEW. I wonder what that could be? Time to seek. Time to open the eyes of my heart and look for something that might interest me and generate a spark of interest. Once that spark ignites, there’s not much to hold me back.
Maybe I’ll write a story about “The Apparition.” Could be fun!
I’ll keep you posted!
A few nights ago, as I was about to drift off into sleep, I heard some words that I thought were very encouraging. I hoped I would remember them in the morning when I woke up. Gratefully, they were there when I awoke. Here they are . . . they sound surprisingly like something the Ancient Ones would say, don’t they? May this bless you as much as it has blessed me!
You think you are powerless,
When, in fact, you have merely reached the limits of your will. Divine Power has not even yet been tapped.
You think you are weak,
When, in fact, you have endured great tribulation with honor and grace.
You think you are afraid,
When, in truth, you have shown extraordinary courage to get this far!
You think you are lost,
When, in truth, you have lifted anchor and set sail for undiscovered lands.
You think you are adrift,
When, in truth, currents of Divine Inspiration guide your towards safety.
You think you are worthless,
When, in truth, your value to Divine Source exists beyond words.
Your thinking causes you great pain.
Truth brings you courage, resources, and unbounded Love.
Phil and I really enjoyed Mother Nature on our walk this morning. It was cool, but not crisp fall air yet. The trees were turning and the leaves beginning to fall. We certainly see and acknowledge the beauty of their letting go.
Why can’t we see that same beauty in our own releasing of things?
We view releasing as tragic or sorrowful. Yet, is it not like the trees releasing their leaves?
Friendships end. Jobs terminate. Doors close.
We see those as tragic and yet they are transition points to the next better thing.
I was asked this morning what brought Phil and I to the Tri-Cities. Tragedy. The utter loss of a business. It was heartbreaking and sad. It was financially devastating and ego wounding.
Yet, looking back, it was what HAD to happen to bring us to where we are and doing what we are doing. Certainly, we could have made other choices once we arrived here. Yet, surprisingly, one thing after another just “worked out” in our behalf and led us to stay here.
Though Phil’s first impression of this high desert of Eastern Washington was one of horror. As we crested the hill past Hermiston and dropped down into the valley, there wasn’t a tree in sight. Coming from Seattle, Sacramento, and Houston Texas most recently, Phil hadn’t really lived away from trees. His comment was, “What have you done to me?!” A few weeks of spectacular sunrises and sunsets softened the blow a bit. Now, dynamite couldn’t get him out of this area!
With the remarkable landscapes, the mild weather, and warm friendships and kinships, we flourished here. Once established, we were then able to be of service to others—where our true calling came into being.
Looking back on those losses, I’m eternally grateful for them! I see them as freedom rather than loss. I perceive them as wiping the slate clean rather than forfeiture.
More losses appear as life happens. Loss of health. Loss of vitality. Loss of concentration. Loss of moments that slip by too quickly. These losses however can be seen as blessings. With loss of health and vitality, I’ve learned to ask for help. (That’s a big one for me!) With loss of concentration, I’ve learned to move from one idea to the next more quickly—I get less bogged down in analyzing things to death. Loss of moments as they slip by is replaced with cherishing each and every experience.
Loss hurts. Yet, loss opens the door for the next wonderful thing to happen. Finding gratitude even when there is hurt, sorrow, and pain not only blesses the soul, but speeds delivery of new, amazing experiences.
To find a blessing in hurt and sorrow, complete this sentence, “I’m really grateful this is happening because . . . “ Sit with it. Ponder it. Allow the truth of it to come to the surface. When all we see or experience is the hurt and loss, we miss it. Even when the sorrow is happening, the blessing is already there! Focusing on the sorrow blocks us from seeing the blessing.
Take a new look. Be blessed and really feel the blessings flow!
Well, I finished cleaning my home office. It ended up taking 2 half days and one full day. I had notes and workshop stuff stacked up here and there and everywhere. Years of scheduling myself from one thing to the next without sufficient time to put away the last class taught along with no real organized way of storing weird stuff . . . well, it was something.
Good news is that I got to sort through a ton of stuff. Letting a bunch of stuff go that I no longer had use for and reviewing a ton of old classes and lessons that I’d previously taught. Some of those classes were poorly attended, but really way-cool stuff. Maybe it just wasn’t time yet, or maybe I had some spiritual growing to do. Either way, I can revisit those things and present them as I’m led to do so.
I was amazed at how much energy it took to look through things. Each piece of paper had to be examined. Each notebook required scrutiny. Each packet of workshop handouts had to be evaluated. I must have made a million decisions throughout the process.
It’s amazing to me how much energy I have as a result!
We harbor so much material in limbo without making a decision on it. Making a decision releases a ton of energy. It seems like it would be the opposite. On some levels, I was really tired after making all those decisions and yet, it unlocked a huge amount of energy that, unknowingly, had been blocked!
We hold back from making decisions thinking those decisions are “too hard” for us. We delay moving forward because we don’t want to make a mistake. When really, the only mistake we make is doing nothing. It’s actually not even doing nothing, it’s less than nothing. There are vast energy stores blocked because we are afraid to move forward.
Certainly, we can list pros and cons to a decision and make the best one we can. We drag our feet on that because it feels like that would be hard. Yet, we have that information within us. We know both sides. We might even discover more that we know that we didn’t know we knew!
What happens sometimes is our head and our heart don’t seem to agree. Do I keep this or throw it away. My brain says it’s just crap and my heart says, “That friend gave it to me! I cherish it!” So, I kept a bunch of what my mind judged as crap and feel really good about it. I let go of a bunch of stuff that my brain said I should keep because, “I might need that someday.” If I truly need that, I’ll acquire it again – maybe in a different form.
The point is, keep it or don’t. Doesn’t matter. Just decide. It’s the deciding that breaks loose the blocked energy. Do it or don’t. Doesn’t really matter in the long run. Just decide. Even “mistakes” are actually great opportunities for blessings, lessons. and insights as yet unknown.
What are you hanging on to? If you choose to cling to something, clearly choose that option – find its value and cherish it. If you decide to move on, do that! Either way, you release blocked energy and have restored vitality to do something of value.
Be brave. Make a choice.
Your Sacred Self awaits your attention.
When you find yourself in resistance to any situation, you silence and shackle your Sacred Self. This part of your being has much wisdom and courage to share with you, yet you lock the door to your awareness - you disconnect from the Sacred Self.
There lies great power here. . . the power to choose wisely, the ability to release, the capacity to love, the comprehension of Divine Love for you, the strength to overcome, the aptitude for compassion, the comprehension of the greater good, and the awareness of Universal Mind.
Why would one cut all that off from themselves? Because it is easier to be angry. It's simpler to be resentful. It seems effortless to be oblivious and judge something as everyone else's fault.
Even though it SEEMS easier, simpler and effortless to shut down, in fact, the opposite is true! It is easier, simpler and even more effortless to connect in! However, it does require letting go.
Ah. There's the rub. Right? Control or perceived control seems valuable and precious in the face of challenges. Yet, that very thing blocks you from that which is most precious of all - connection to the Sacred Self which is connected to Divine Source.
We encourage you to notice when you seek control (perceived control). Tapping into the Sacred Self allows you to be the Master of your Life . . . far better choice than a miserable attempt at controlling things.
We say these things not to shame you or to discourage you. Rather we say these things to awaken your awareness to an encouragement already "on board"!
One way to connect with the Sacred Self is to observe nature. A falling leaf. A glowing sunrise. A wild rose. A bird flying overhead. If you cannot get out in nature, view pictures of nature and envision yourself within that place. Even just for a moment, this allows you contact with your Sacred Self.
Notice. Feel free. Be alive.
We love you.